just feeling suicidal cause ill always be a failure at life cause of mental illness. i have no hope for the future, im losing big time right now, gonna lose the car, lost my ebt and medical insurance cause i couldnt fill out my SAR-7 while in the mental hospital, my gf had a seizure and cannot work until getting results back, she will run out of unemployment soon, ive sold everything i owned and have 300 in the bank, who knows how long that will last. i will end up stuck at my parents house as a failed 35 year old jobless mentally ill freak and end up killing myself for real, its all i think about, i just want the pain and anxiety and depression to stop
